To anybody who remembers the internet crime that has been committed to me a few months back… I found the culprit.

See… because I thought it’s one of my friends who is doing it, I pursued the matter. I refuse to have a snake amongst the people that I value and love dearly.

Turned out, it’s not one of my friends. I don’t know how to actually make you feel how relieved I was when I found out that it’s not a friend doing it. It was like waking up from a very bad dream.

Want to know who did it? Well, hard evidence pointed out to the girlfriend of my ex-boyfriend. I don’t know if my ex-boyfriend was in it too, but I couldn’t care less. They don’t matter to me anyway. But the case is still on its way, and that’s why I’m not divulging their names.

Let me tell you about my work.

Well, I am now a financial planner. Doing mainly medium to long term investments. Trying to give advice to rich and very rich people on what to do with their money. It’s not a hard job, and to be honest, I find joy in doing it. Maybe because it’s financial in nature yet I get to talk to a lot of different people.

I got myself new friends at work (as usual) and I feel honored and touched that they accepted me very easily. Not everybody could be counted as lucky as me I guess. That makes it more meaningful to me. Although I’m satisfied with how my life is moving here, that doesn’t mean that I’ve forgotten all the friends that I left in Singapore. I still think of them very often and quite fondly. That is why I’ve invited most of my best friends here to join me when I take a vacation there before this year ends. I still miss Singapore and I’ll keep on coming back for sure!

Something utterly depressing and infuriating happened to me lately. Someone was messing up with my email, and using (after a lot of machinations) my own words against me.

I don’t want to divulge everything yet, because I still need to know who’s doing it, but I’ll tell you this much. Someone opened my email account, went through my emails, and created a vicious story about me to ruin my name in front of a best friend of mine.

Thing is, the intention was not just to ruin my reputation, but to turn me against my other best friend at the same time. I was shocked and I felt so wronged when I found out about it. Here I am, trying my best to keep my friends then someone, will just butt in and create trouble for me. I’m just living my life. Actually, I’m trying to fix it. Somebody please, give me a break!

I still don’t know who’s doing it. But my friends are all doing their part to find out who it is. I think it can be done by locating the IP address of the email account that this person used. There’s no way I’m gonna let this pass. Because until I find out who’s doing this, I will continue to have doubts about my friends and the people close to me.

This is a deceit I will never ever be able to tolerate. Definitely, when I find out who’s doing this, I will file a lawsuit against that person.

I don’t know if I’m just being bratty, but I think my sentiments are all well justified. The peso is continuously gaining strength against foreign currency, yet I don’t see any difference.

Traffic is still impossible, public transpo is so jammed, you’ll keep on asking yourself why you even left your house to begin with, the air in the city seems to be giving me a hard time to breath, and the dust keeps on dirtying my feet! Ugh!

There’s still a lot of issues in the Government, public seems to be preoccupied on trying to live every single day that it doesn’t have the gal to protest anymore. There are some protesters, but I myself are doubting their intentions.

I don’t even know what I’m still doing here. If not for my family, I have bailed a long time ago I think. Although, if I think of it, I really like the culture here. Except for the foul realities that constantly nags at me every waking day.

After weeks of non-activity finally my brain is working again. I’m now overflowing with ideas, and I’m very excited when I relay these ideas. People are also caught up in this excitement that I feel. Now I can fully grasp and accept the full picture.

I’m open for my friends’ ideas, especially Josser and Rhaus because they’re really very creative. And they have been in the PR business for quite some time now. Everything we do is sooo fun that I don’t feel like I’m working at all.

There is no problem or glitch that I don’t have answers to. I still get frustrated explaining though, because I don’t know why, even though they’re extremely smart they still don’t get everything the first time.

There are no limitations to what can be achieved. I’m not only thinking now, I’m also starting to do. They’re just very careful in saying words that you SHOULD do this, or I’m TELLING you to do that. I’m like that to them, but they already know it wouldn’t work on me. My mind would just shut down and stop working as a sign of defiance.

I know… I know… It’s weird. I really don’t know how I got to be this way, but I can count myself lucky that my friends tolerate me. Well they also have their own idiosyncrasies and I tolerate them too.

Friendships and partnerships are really about acceptance and trust.

A combination of those two and you can’t go wrong. It would be very hard to go wrong.

Especially when I’m with very talented, extremely smart and motivated people with ambition. These are the qualities that I look for in a friend.

Good to know that I have managed to collect quite a few.

I’d like to quote my cousin Alvin of his idea of Valentine. He said Valentines day is just a day made up by the greeting cards companies to increase sales.

I hold the same sentiment. I mean, hello?! Do you really need a special day just to make a loved one feel special? Why not do it everyday right?

It’s all bullshit. Not my style.

My friends are all telling me that I’m just bitter, or I just don’t know how to love a guy, or that I am not capable of being hurt. Truth of the matter is, I’m not bitter because I know how to accept that things do come to an end.

I fell in love before. Twice actually. And I am capable of being hurt just like any other person.

It’s just that I don’t know how to show feelings to a guy. I used to know, I was able to do it with my ex. After him, I guess I just didn’t feel like doing it again. Or I forgot how. Not sure which one.

So my point here (if I have one that is) is that if you’re lucky enough to love someone at this very moment, and even tomorrow, show then and tell them everyday that you love them. I wouldn’t blame you guys though if you can’t do it because I can’t also. haha! But at least I don’t have those stupid notions about Valentines day. Hmph!

What will I do this Valentines day? Nothing. I’ll be going through the day the same way I do everyday. Let’s put it this way, I’m a Catholic, but I’m a non-practicing catholic. For that, you can say I’m a non-practicing romantic. Because I am a romantic too. Just can’t put it into actions.

Waaay too mushy for me!

(For now- coz one can not be sure if that’s always gonna be the case)

Somebody please show me the light!!! I’ve been hearing a lot about this guy, and yet I don’t know anything about him.

I think morality is in question here. Hmm… something I like discussing (not that I claim morality on my side that is.)

I would need to research on this more before I open my big mouth I guess. Although I don’t think I’m in the right position to discuss someone else’s life. Especially someone I don’t even know.

To who ever might have read Princessa’s entry with a photo of me and a clone, and a photo as well of a phone with a message in it. It’s not how it seems to be.

good photo shop skills by the way. hehe. » Read The Rest

I always thought my ex-boyfriend is not very bright.

But I never thought how much of an asshole he really is!!! I am literally seething with fury right now. The nerve of that bastard!

Arg! I’ll try to make some sense with this entry. I’ll explain what happened.

I was talking to my bestfriend in the Philippines, Zarah and she was telling me about her problems with her husband. They’re relationship is totally over the edge. After that, she told me that there’s something I need to know about my ex boyfriend.

I thought she’s gonna tell me that my ex would be getting married soon. I’m fine with that. Can’t be bothered. But then again, I’m not that lucky.

What she told me is that my ex boyfriend is going around telling people that I was sleeping around when we were together. I can not believe it! That asshole! I mean if it was true, it’s okay.

But it’s not and I will not tolerate it! He knows that he’s my first and only boyfriend for a very long time. If I had a boyfriend after him, that’s not my fault anymore. Besides, that boyfriend (louie) the relationship lasted for only two months. Because I realized I was still in love with the other one.

Yup. I was really in love with that jerk. His name is Ian Mar Dayot. There, I said it. To who ever searches his name in the internet for whatever reason, I hope they find out that they’re looking for - a scumbag.

I tried my best to make the relationship work. All the compromises I can think off, I did it all. I learned how to cook, how to wash dishes, how to fold and iron clothes. And all those menial things that I normally refuse to do.

I tried to act stupid even. To not know things that he’s trying to make me understand although I know for a fact that I know the topic more than him. Still I gave him everything that I can think off. Just to please him.

He’s a freaking moron!!! I don’t know if anyone can comprehend how pissed I am right now but it doesn’t matter. Anyway, he was the one sleeping around, and not me. My conscience is clear. For his, I don’t want to comment on it.

The whole time, I thought we’re friends. We have our separate lives now, he has his new girlfriend and I’m here in Singapore. Trying to make a future for myself. And to make my family proud. I don’t understand why he has to ruin the reputation that I have been careful to preserve.

Then I’ll get this bullshit? Sooo totally uncalled for. If I see him anywhere in this world I will definitely give him a black eye. Hmp!

Haiz… writing about it actually did help a little bit. I’m not as agitated as the first time I heard the news. But whatever I wrote here still stands. Now I know why they say ex’s can’t be friends. You know why? Because normally one of you would be stupid. And for this case, I’m not that one.

I’m not saying that he’s stupid. He just is. Bwahaha!

I know I said I don’t like profanities. I hope who ever reads this understands that sometimes we just have to call a stupid idiot moron to fuck off!

I wrote about our paintball experience more than a week ago, and it’s barren. No photos to actually show how fun it was. You guys should really go and try it. Normally girls wouldn’t like it but I… well I love guns! So go figure. haha!

Alright, so this is the place where it happened.

At Tag Cafe!

Funny thing is, I don’t have rubber shoes on. Since I was staying at Princessa’s place during that time and she’s also not a rubber shoes kind of person. So there’s no choice. I had to play paint ball wearing my flip flops.

But that didn’t stop me. Oh no it didn’t!

This is me and Princessa of course. But she didn’t play. She’s such a girl! Hihi! Oh and he-who-must-not-be-named is in these photos. I just wouldn’t say which one he is. » Read The Rest